Wednesday, August 31

Baby and Me | Weeks 1-17

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What a difference 2 months makes in a sonogram right? In case you don't read sound waves (which is crazy that a sonogram is pretty much just seeing sound, isn't it?) the photo at the top was the first sonogram we got at 7 weeks and all we could really see was a tiny, blob with a heartbeat. The photo at the bottom is from the sonogram we got 2 weeks ago when the little man was 16 weeks (and much more human looking, thankfully). The photo is a picture of him from the side and you can see his profile, body, left leg curled up against his belly, and his right hand up by his forehead. This one is my favorite of all the photos we received from our 2nd sonogram. 

I've been journaling through the whole pregnancy but have felt a very strong urge to just keep most things to myself. I'm generally not a super private person when it comes to my online life but for some reason I just haven't felt the urge to share that much. But... because I LOVE reading blogs of women (and men) who openly share some of the ins and outs of the experience I figured I'd post a bit of an update for any curious readers. 

I found out I was pregnant very early... at about 3 1/2 weeks. So my first trimester seemed to last an ETERNITY (most women don't find out till closer to 6 weeks). You don't go in for your first real appointment till you're closer to 10 weeks so we just had to sit around and wait for a month and a half. Luckily, our midwives let us go in for an ultrasound at 7 weeks so we could have a photo for Father's Day. My first trimester went slowly but easily and I was a very lucky girl to not suffer from any morning sickness or nausea. I didn't really have any strong smell or food aversions either. The one symptom I did have in spades was fatigue. I felt like I was coming down with the flu the entire time, my body just felt limp all day no matter how much I slept that night or how many naps I took. It was like I had the flu, had just completed an Iron Man, and hadn't slept in a week. That's what I felt like. I actually remember having to use the restroom and seriously debating it because I was so tired that walking down the hall sounded like too much. I'm amazed I got anything done at all in June. 

Like I said, I didn't really have any nausea or aversions and smells didn't bother me too much. I did lose my appetite for a few months. I just wasn't hungry for anything in particular and nothing sounded good. And even still, although now I'm hungry all the time, I still have a lot of things that just don't sound good at all. I guess it's my own version of cravings?

This week is my 18th week so I'm almost halfway through the second trimester and almost exactly halfway through the entire pregnancy. I like the second trimester a lot better so far even though it seems to come with its own set of quirks. I now regularly wake up at least twice per night to use the bathroom, even if I don't drink any water before bed. And while I seem to have my appetite back, it seems to be only for very specific things which change all the time. So planning meals in advance isn't really an option. Also, I have a constantly stuffy nose (excuse my sniffing please), achy back, and a general feeling of "off"ness which I'm just going to go ahead and file under "hormones".  But seriously, I can't complain because I've had an easy road so far. 

We found out that he was a he about two weeks ago now and I'm so glad we decided to do that. Not only because the curiosity would have absolutely killed us both. (We're both bad at waiting.) But I had been feeling very apathetic about being pregnant and having an extremely hard time connecting with the idea. I was actually worried about it because so many other pregnant women seem to be all rainbows, unicorns, and sunshine the moment they find out and that wasn't my experience at all. I wasn't upset. I just felt... blank. Now, knowing that he is a boy has helped me so much to feel like all of this is real. That there is a real person in there and it's going to be a guy. 

We go in for our next appointment and our next (and biggest) sonogram in the next two weeks. I'm a bit nervous about it as I'm always nervous for our appointments but I am excited to get to see the little man on the big screen again. So far I can't feel him moving so it's a bit surreal to watch him move all around on the TV.  They say I should start feeling him move in the upcoming months. I'm anxious to know what that feels like!

Thanks for all the well wishes! 
xo,
B


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Friday, August 19

almost 17 weeks...


photo by my husband, Nate Robinson

One of the perks of having a nonexistent torso is that your stomach "pops" a few weeks earlier than your taller, more torso-inclined, female species mates. 

One of the perks of having a window this big in your living room is... bam! Instant natural light studio in which your husband can take photos of you. 

I'm at the end of my 16th week and this week was the week my stomach went from "hey did you eat too much Mexican food last night?" to "I think that girl is pregnant, or she has a small tumor". Of course I don't generally parade around town in a skin tight American Apparel dress, but you get the idea. 

Apparently, the littlest one is the size of an avocado this week. And I hear rumors that my uterus is bigger than a grapefruit. And that is strange because grapefruits are friggin big. And it's weird to think that something grapefruit sized is now lodged somewhere between my pelvic bone and my belly button. I digress...

I've been extremely lucky so far, kissed by the pregnancy gods with the gift of no nausea or morning sickness, no food aversions, no dry heaving, etc. In my first trimester my biggest woe was fatigue. And while it was pretty intense (walking to the bathroom made me feel like I'd run a mile) I'll take that over puking any day. ANY DAY. Now-a-days the fatigue has worn off and has been replaced with an apparent inability to sleep an entire night without waking up 15 times for no reason. It's super fun. 

So far, all is good on the medical front. I'm right on track for every parameter and so is the littlest so we're all pretty proud of ourselves around these parts. It's just now (4 months in) starting to feel less like a dream and more like life. Even still though I'll find myself forgetting that I'm pregnant until something reminds me and then internally freaking out for a few seconds before I realize that this has been going on for a good 16 weeks now. Other things that freak me out: maternity clothing stores, people that call me "mommy", seeing mom groups full of screaming infants and toddlers, screaming infants and toddlers, all the products marketed to me now (there's actually a pillow called the "breast friend"), the strange muscle pangs I get if I sneeze too hard or stand up too quickly, the thought that by this time next year I'll have a 6 month old baby...

It's a lot to wrap one's hormone flooded head around. Here's to another successful week!

Also, to see our big gender announcement, go here








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Thursday, August 18

Tomorrow is the big day friends! Tomorrow at 12:30 we will find out if the little creature inside of me is a boy or a girl. I'm seriously bursting with curiosity and I can't wait to see what the results are. We've got some pretty strong hunches coming in from family members and Nate is CONVINCED he knows which it is so I'm excited to see if everyone is right or if the littlest one will throw everyone for a loop. 

I do have a hunch, but I'm keeping it to myself in case I'm wrong. :)

I've taken a bunch of those silly gender prediction tests and wives tales and so far, girl seems to be the front winner with a 3-2 score. I'm pretty skeptical about all of those tests but it was fun to see what results I got. From the ring test (where you hang a gold ring over your belly and see how it moves) the result was GIRL. From the needle test (where someone holds a suspended needle over your wrist to see if it ticks or circles) the result was GIRL. The old wives tale about the baby's heart rate predicts a GIRL since our littlest one has had a heart rate above 140 so far. The morning sickness wives tale tells me I'm destined to have a BOY since I didn't have any morning sickness. The Chinese Gender Prediction calendar says BOY, and to be honest I have no idea how it's calculated. And the wives tale about cravings is inconclusive because I have wanted both savory and sweet things pretty much evenly. 


I'm planning on procuring an icy, creamy, sugary milkshake right before our appointment so that the littlest one will have lots of energy to move around and give us a glance at the goods. 

What do you think? Boy or Girl?

xo,
B


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Tuesday, August 9

you and me together...

Pack your bags -something small
Take what you need and we disappear
Without a trace we'll be gone, gone

The moon and the stars can follow the car
and then when we get to the ocean
We gonna take a boat to the end of the world
All the way to the end of the world

Oh, and when the kids are old enough
We're gonna teach them to fly

You and me together, we could do anything, Baby
You and me together yes, yes.

You and I, we're not tied to the ground
Not falling but rising like rolling around
Eyes closed above the rooftops

Eyes closed, we're gonna spin through the stars
Our arms wide as the sky
We gonna ride the blue all the way to the end of the world
To the end of the world

Oh, and when the kids are old enough
We're gonna teach them to fly.






This is one of my favorite songs and every time I hear it I get a bit choked up. We're so happy to finally be able to go PUBLIC with our big secret.

This is one of my favorite songs by Dave Matthews and now every time I hear it I get a bit choked up. We're so happy to finally be able to go public with our big secret. And by the way, we've been keeping this secret for so long! It was torture I tell you to have to remain mum on the interwebs. I'm 15 weeks along which is just shy of 4 months and according to our midwife I'm in perfect health and so is baby Robinson. I was extremely lucky to have a very easy first trimester with no morning sickness and very mild symptoms. We'll find out if it's a girl or a boy soon although everyone seems to think we'll be seeing pink. I'm so glad to finally share the news!




xo,
Becka



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