What a difference 2 months makes in a sonogram right? In case you don't read sound waves (which is crazy that a sonogram is pretty much just seeing sound, isn't it?) the photo at the top was the first sonogram we got at 7 weeks and all we could really see was a tiny, blob with a heartbeat. The photo at the bottom is from the sonogram we got 2 weeks ago when the little man was 16 weeks (and much more human looking, thankfully). The photo is a picture of him from the side and you can see his profile, body, left leg curled up against his belly, and his right hand up by his forehead. This one is my favorite of all the photos we received from our 2nd sonogram.
I've been journaling through the whole pregnancy but have felt a very strong urge to just keep most things to myself. I'm generally not a super private person when it comes to my online life but for some reason I just haven't felt the urge to share that much. But... because I LOVE reading blogs of women (and men) who openly share some of the ins and outs of the experience I figured I'd post a bit of an update for any curious readers.
I found out I was pregnant very early... at about 3 1/2 weeks. So my first trimester seemed to last an ETERNITY (most women don't find out till closer to 6 weeks). You don't go in for your first real appointment till you're closer to 10 weeks so we just had to sit around and wait for a month and a half. Luckily, our midwives let us go in for an ultrasound at 7 weeks so we could have a photo for Father's Day. My first trimester went slowly but easily and I was a very lucky girl to not suffer from any morning sickness or nausea. I didn't really have any strong smell or food aversions either. The one symptom I did have in spades was fatigue. I felt like I was coming down with the flu the entire time, my body just felt limp all day no matter how much I slept that night or how many naps I took. It was like I had the flu, had just completed an Iron Man, and hadn't slept in a week. That's what I felt like. I actually remember having to use the restroom and seriously debating it because I was so tired that walking down the hall sounded like too much. I'm amazed I got anything done at all in June.
Like I said, I didn't really have any nausea or aversions and smells didn't bother me too much. I did lose my appetite for a few months. I just wasn't hungry for anything in particular and nothing sounded good. And even still, although now I'm hungry all the time, I still have a lot of things that just don't sound good at all. I guess it's my own version of cravings?
This week is my 18th week so I'm almost halfway through the second trimester and almost exactly halfway through the entire pregnancy. I like the second trimester a lot better so far even though it seems to come with its own set of quirks. I now regularly wake up at least twice per night to use the bathroom, even if I don't drink any water before bed. And while I seem to have my appetite back, it seems to be only for very specific things which change all the time. So planning meals in advance isn't really an option. Also, I have a constantly stuffy nose (excuse my sniffing please), achy back, and a general feeling of "off"ness which I'm just going to go ahead and file under "hormones". But seriously, I can't complain because I've had an easy road so far.
We found out that he was a he about two weeks ago now and I'm so glad we decided to do that. Not only because the curiosity would have absolutely killed us both. (We're both bad at waiting.) But I had been feeling very apathetic about being pregnant and having an extremely hard time connecting with the idea. I was actually worried about it because so many other pregnant women seem to be all rainbows, unicorns, and sunshine the moment they find out and that wasn't my experience at all. I wasn't upset. I just felt... blank. Now, knowing that he is a boy has helped me so much to feel like all of this is real. That there is a real person in there and it's going to be a guy.
We go in for our next appointment and our next (and biggest) sonogram in the next two weeks. I'm a bit nervous about it as I'm always nervous for our appointments but I am excited to get to see the little man on the big screen again. So far I can't feel him moving so it's a bit surreal to watch him move all around on the TV. They say I should start feeling him move in the upcoming months. I'm anxious to know what that feels like!
Thanks for all the well wishes!