listed | things i'm afraid to tell you...


You know that I love transparency right? Well even I draw the line somewhere and some parts of my life and thoughts in my mind will never make it onto the world wide web. But... EZ over at Creature Comforts challenged me and a bunch of other bloggers to share a few things we've been keeping to ourselves out of fear in hopes that we can make the blogging community a more real place. I love the idea, and the goal, and while I'm not stoked to let these little bits about me fly, at least it's good practice for staying true to myself. Hope you don't hate me after...

1. I don't floss, like ever. I know, I know.  
2. I wish all the time that I was more successful, further along, more sought after. And I have all along. I wonder if that will ever go away or if I'll ever feel like I've "made it". Or if I'll just spend my whole life striving and struggling up a hill that is impossible to climb. 
3. I really love dark things. Dark photos, dark movies, dark music. I'm afraid if I let everyone know they'd think I was really depressing. And maybe sometimes I am. But dark and depressing doesn't make for great blog fodder so I generally keep that side of myself private.  
4. Sometimes I want to quit everything and just go get a "regular" job full of regular paychecks and regular schedules and regular vacation hours. 
5. I've lived in this house for almost a year now and still, the only room that I consider "finished" is the baby's room. We just don't have the money (or just don't choose to spend it) on decorating. It's frustrating sometimes because I just want it to all look so perfect and it never does. Also, I need a big rug. 
6. I get really jealous of my friends that live in California because I feel like so many amazing opportunities are just afforded to them based on geography. I know they are talented and work their asses off but it's hard when everything interesting in my industry is happening there and all my talented friends hang out with each other there and because of those two things they get opportunities and connections that I just don't ever and won't ever get. And I'm on the opposite end of the country from it. 
7. I hate most photos taken of myself, which is frustrating since I'm a photographer and give other people pretty pictures of themselves all the time. 
8.  I always feel like the odd man out. 
9. Sometimes when my baby is asleep and I get busy doing things I forget for a second that I'm a mom and it feels almost like my old life. Then when I hear him start to fuss as he wakes up I feel sad that I have so many responsibilites now and that everything has changed.
10. I know in my head how to change a tire, but I think if my tire actually went flat I'd probably just call road side assistance. I know, I'm setting women back a decade, but it's the truth. 




24 Said Something:

  1. I LOVED this post! Very funny, honest, and sincere.

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  2. RE: #6. I feel this way ALL the time.

    I just don't think Florida is really the most creative place in general. Like, at all. I plan on moving somewhere more interesting and with a bigger artistic culture going on.

    Thanks for sharing. We all feel inadequate from time to time.

    I may join in.

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  3. This paints such a lovely, real portrait of you. Crushing on you extra today.

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  4. Amen to #9...thought I was the only one who felt that way...big sigh

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  5. I completely understand about the California thing. Sometimes it makes me feel like number 9, so I guess that goes hand in hand for me haha

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  6. I can so relate. Great to hear that things that I like that make me wonder if they are normal (#3) are at least not unique. Thanks for man-ing up.

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  7. This is a lovely, honest, and insightful list of 10. Honesty with who you are and balancing that with privacy is difficult to do out here in the interwebs. Thank you for this very beautiful glimpse into your life.

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  8. this could seriously have been written by me. i don't floss, ever. i love dark everything. i always feel like the odd man out… were we separated at birth?

    but in all seriousness, kudos for participating in the challenge. it's a really tough thing to bare all and i give you a ton of credit for putting it out there.

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  9. oh, sister. i'm encouraged to hear that i'm not the only one. funny how that works!

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  10. Great post lady! Thanks for keeping it real!

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  11. Oh my gosh.. 1 - 4 is me too! And 7 and 8.. so glad to hear I'm not the only one :) Great post, thank you for having the courage to share!

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  12. #'s 2, 4, 7, 8, 10 & especially 6 are all things I relate to. I live in North Dakota so the opportunities are even slimmer up here. I mean, who knows any photographers in North Dakota? Yup, no one.

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  13. Thanks for sharing! It's been fun to see everyone's posts on this topic today! We have so much in common, most notably 1,2 and 7,8,9, 10. :)

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  14. Your transparency posts resonate with me so so much! I can absolutely relate to 1, 3, & 4!
    Also..
    5 - It's been almost 4 years and we are just now getting around to decorating.
    6 - I'm just jealous of Cali in general!
    2 - I think this is normal and it's the drive that keeps you going.. but you should give yourself a little more credit, bc you're awesome :)

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  15. LOVE! I'm finding so many great blogs today, thanks to this challenge! Much of your list reflected my own little secrets. And OH, #9! I have no end of guilt for feeling that way, but I really do. Thank you for this post...I'll be following your blog from now on!

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  16. A big reason why I love you're photography work and actually find it refreshing is because you are in Florida. It's different, it's unique, and I don't see a lot of photographers work from Florida. I'm tired of Californa. Florida is exclusive :)

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  17. #2 for sure, and 7 Love your honesty and keeping the blog world REAL. I'm guilty of it too but it all does start to just sound like that highlight reel sometimes... I've only been following a short time but you are such an inspiration. Thank you thank you!

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  18. Oh I hear you on #7 and #10. (Except for the knowing how to change a flat tyre in my head - I'm not even that far evolved!)

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  19. Except for no. 6 and 10 (I don't live in the States and I don't drive) this post could have been mine.

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  20. Numbers 2, 3, 4, 7 and 8... you read my mind. Great post!

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  21. I love this concept. I also don't floss. I also love dark things. And I also know how to change a tire in my head - but would probably call roadside assistance. You see, being honest really just brings us closer together in the end. I think it'd be really awesome to do a post like this, I'm going to add it to my list.

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  22. Hilarious! After having George, I completely failed at flossing. My dentist had the best (but sadly kind of wasteful) suggestion - put one of those small suction cup caddies in your shower, and store the plastic floss picks in them. I floss regularly now.

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